Right.Where was i?Yeah, about HIM.I  have steered clear of that topic for months and now i'm back on.That's because he somehow managed to come back into my life again.He's not dead, just a faraway place that i'll never be able to go.

I've never felt more like a pathetic piece of crap before since the ex broke up and got back and now, i don't know what really IS going on between us.While i had my relationship with this guy faraway, i was 'seeing' this other guy on the side.We didn't really meet but we'd chat on the net and call each other.So, nothing else besides unexpressed feelings.We called each other really close pals.But you know, some dreams DO come to an end.

He was real nice and all.Maybe better than my ex.NO offence J.Maybe definitely better but now i'll always see him in a different light for what he did.

For the first time, i've never cried because of a guy.I never cry for any guy.When i broke up with my ex or got back with him,i NEVER cried which was kinda strange.

So, what he did to me and with me would remain a silent secret from anyone.Obviously.

But my friends know some parts of it.I think Jia should know more of it than anyone in our group.

Well, today, i saw that he viewed my profile and i was very, very hurt.

>>>Chris Aguilera's Hurt comes on<<<

 

 

 

Right.I can't go on.Too painful.